so, everything you do, everything you have always done, has always been for someone else.
you learned at a young age that life was easier if you just pleased everyone, did everything you were told, and stayed quiet. you did not get hurt that way.
now that you are older, you feel as if you are not your own person.
what do you like?
what makes you happy?
what do you want to do?
you would think those were simple questions, but you are struggling with the answers. you feel hollow and empty. devoid of life, as if you lost it long ago.
truth is, you think you did loose it.
you stopped wanting to live when you were eight years old or when you turned twenty-one.
you are still not sure if you want to.
BUT you do not know if you have ever truly felt alive in the first place. can a soul die and the body keep on living? because you think that may have happened to you.
now, you would like to revive yourself. try to do things that make you feel alive and genuinely happy. you hope you can do that.
all you want is to feel alive. and you are going to do that even if it takes near death to feel it. you cannot wait to escape this. you are ready for something more.
you just happen to love the world. you think it is great that you are here and able to go through the things that take place in living.
it is amazing to live.
but you have lost interest in almost everything.
you so want to feel alive.
you just do not know how to.
we think feeling alive takes on many different forms and shapes for many different people.
to be alive and to feel alive requires that you be true to yourself and forget about all the things that you have become a slave to.
the freedom to live and to be alive is often a very strong and unique character trait, unfortunatley for those that possess this trait, it often becomes very easy to get disillusioned and caught up in the rigors of everyday life.
you must look deep inside of yourself and discover what it is that makes you tick. what makes you smile, and what makes you feel as if you are on the top of the world. explore the aspects of your life from the standpoint of heart, mind, body, and soul and find those things that make your heart sing. you may not be able to escape your bondage easily, however each small step you take will allow your soul to grow another feather on its journey to flight.
for most of our lives, we are able to feel alive or to feel the zest of living. for those times that we do not feel alive and feel as if we are a slave to our surroundings, we must remember to focus on the things that allow us to soar. it is a goal that must be constantly feed or your zest for life slowly dies.
we also find that the things that allow our souls to soar are those that are in their most simplest form; however the journey to be able to take joy in the simple things is often complex as you must first learn to escape that which binds you.
darn, we are taking this life way too seriously.
it is just life! nothing more, nothing less, nothing else!
it is just all you have got!
THIS IS YOUR LIFE
and it is ending one minute at a time.
LIVE IT!
